what i should do??Ya Allah help me...

Sometimes,life needs sacrifice even it is not 4 urself,,i am sacrificing my future,my ambition,my love,my friends n anything here..only just 4 my parents request..they need the best 4 me..b4 they go to Allah,my parent dont want me life in a hard life like them..but i dont know..i wont get this feeling if i didnt get here..i wont feel sad if i didnt know my bloved friends here,,iefa,qiela,amoi,ainul,teha....i didnt get a best moment wif my bestfriend here..n.....i  didnt get him n love him so much if i didnt get here.. i got here 2 be a teacher or lecturer one day,,but its gonna be change after i get my interview that i will going to attend it this coming Monday,25 October..i get interview 4 spa8..i dont know what i should do 4 myself..i just can pray n ask Allah give the best choice 4 me in my future,,maybe my parent choice is good 4 me..

adk syg mak n ayh..

dear my mom n dad,,
i want u all 2 be happy wif me in dis world and hereafter,,for those i do in my life only for u all.. i just wanna take care both of u like u t8 care of me since i was a small girl,,no one can replace u all in my heart..
i love u mak n ayh,,miss u all so much..
dear my friends here,,
4 the 1st time we met,,i cant forget all the memories we had together,,so sweet to be wif u all.,

sory dear,,

dear my best ftiends forever,,ily..
i love u so much,,thanks 4 taking care of me here..
you was such a good friends since i lived in this world..
take care of yourself when im not here dear,,
my heart dont want to leave u alone here..
im so sad..
t8 care dear..






n lastly..
4 my love..
i always need u dear in my life..
i love u,,only u in my life,,the 1st guy i met in my life,,
who make me laugh wif those joke,,
make me smile wif ur happy smile..
make my heart fall in love when every time ur eyes look through my face..
make me feel false when u cried in front of me dear..

my beloved ones..

forgive me dear when im deciding 2 leave u alone here..
but..
my heart n my soul always wif u..accompany u,,wherever u go n whatever u do in ur life..
i'll waiting 4 u until 6 years..
i holding ur promises..
i love u dear..love u so much..
t8 care of urself,studies n ur health..
thanks 4 ur love which i cant get it from someone else..
thanks so much..
hmmmm...........
i dont know what im thinking about,,
dats all..pray 4 me..4 my life n success..amin...