knape jd mcm ni???????????????

kdg aty ni an rse mcm nk mrh sgt..x tau la npe..hmmmmmmmm,,,
kdg2 skt aty sgt dgn org2 sekeliling,,org x fhm kte ni mcm mne,,ape yg kte rse n ape yg kte nk..pdhal kte try  fhm org2 tu,,n slalu ad time diorg ad msalah..ntah la..x baik mengungkit,,yg penting kte ikhlas wat ape2 pon dmi org lain an?wt x tau je la ape yg jd..xpe,,sbr..x baik mrh2 ni,,
kte mrh bkn sbb ape,,syaitan n iblis 2 yg menyucuk lbh srh bg api2 kn kmarahan 2 an..
by the way,,ignore about dat..biarkan perasaan itu pergi dgn hembusan angin yg datang menerusi dri ni,,hahaha!!mcm tlbih sastera plak..
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......
kdg2 aty ni rse rindu kt Allah..
rse dri ni bdose sgt,,knape eh?sbb mmg kte bdose an..kdg2 kte lpe Dia yg menciptakan kita semua,,
Dia yg bg nikmat khidupan ni semua..
tp 2 la..
kte x pndai nk bersyukur ape yg ad..
yg ad kt dpn mte sume nk buang,x puas aty lg,pdhal yg Dia bg 2 pun da ckp lengkap..

what i should do??Ya Allah help me...

Sometimes,life needs sacrifice even it is not 4 urself,,i am sacrificing my future,my ambition,my love,my friends n anything here..only just 4 my parents request..they need the best 4 me..b4 they go to Allah,my parent dont want me life in a hard life like them..but i dont know..i wont get this feeling if i didnt get here..i wont feel sad if i didnt know my bloved friends here,,iefa,qiela,amoi,ainul,teha....i didnt get a best moment wif my bestfriend here..n.....i  didnt get him n love him so much if i didnt get here.. i got here 2 be a teacher or lecturer one day,,but its gonna be change after i get my interview that i will going to attend it this coming Monday,25 October..i get interview 4 spa8..i dont know what i should do 4 myself..i just can pray n ask Allah give the best choice 4 me in my future,,maybe my parent choice is good 4 me..

adk syg mak n ayh..

dear my mom n dad,,
i want u all 2 be happy wif me in dis world and hereafter,,for those i do in my life only for u all.. i just wanna take care both of u like u t8 care of me since i was a small girl,,no one can replace u all in my heart..
i love u mak n ayh,,miss u all so much..
dear my friends here,,
4 the 1st time we met,,i cant forget all the memories we had together,,so sweet to be wif u all.,

sory dear,,

dear my best ftiends forever,,ily..
i love u so much,,thanks 4 taking care of me here..
you was such a good friends since i lived in this world..
take care of yourself when im not here dear,,
my heart dont want to leave u alone here..
im so sad..
t8 care dear..






n lastly..
4 my love..
i always need u dear in my life..
i love u,,only u in my life,,the 1st guy i met in my life,,
who make me laugh wif those joke,,
make me smile wif ur happy smile..
make my heart fall in love when every time ur eyes look through my face..
make me feel false when u cried in front of me dear..

my beloved ones..

forgive me dear when im deciding 2 leave u alone here..
but..
my heart n my soul always wif u..accompany u,,wherever u go n whatever u do in ur life..
i'll waiting 4 u until 6 years..
i holding ur promises..
i love u dear..love u so much..
t8 care of urself,studies n ur health..
thanks 4 ur love which i cant get it from someone else..
thanks so much..
hmmmm...........
i dont know what im thinking about,,
dats all..pray 4 me..4 my life n success..amin...

thanks to my love n my bloved friends..i'm happy so much!!

on my birthday...
sy tharu sgt time birthday kali ni..ntah la..slalu x rse pon mcm ni..slalu klu smbt birthday biase je,,
dlu time skolah mnengah smbut dgan kwn2,sume girls..biase la skolah pompuan an..heeee~
besh oo skolah pompuan,,x pyh srabut dgn bdk2 laki ni..hmm..sy x sangka nk dpt surprise mcm ni skali..klu ikt aty org da wish pon da ckp..ckp la skdr igt pon alhamdulillah..sal present2 sy x ksah sgt,,im not materialistik person..tp ad jgk hamba Allah sorg ni ske kasi sy mcm2 sjak sy knl dye lg..ish!!kdg2 gram jgk..tp x leh yg ni special person..hehehehe!!
even bru 2 bln ktorang bsame an..dye byk mengajar sy mcm2..ape 2 ksh syg..sy x pnah rse dhargai mcm ni skali..x pernah rse dsyangi mcm ni..x pnah rse slmat mcm ni ble bsame dye..
tp aty ni slau tkot,,tkot hbgn ni x leh pjg mcmane sy impikan..mcmane sy nk dr dulu lg..sjk sy x knl dye lg..
klu bleh nk knl dye je,xnk da knl spe2..nk dye je dlm hdp ni,,4 me,he is perfect..
tp ape leh wat,doa je la..kte x tau in future mcmane..ape yg nk jd..dlm hdp kne ad ksbrn yg byk tmbh lg dlm 1 phbgn yg utk slama2nya..tol x?hmmm..klu kne dok jauh skali biar la dr segi fzikal je jauh,tp aty x..sntiasa ad,,slg mlengkapi an..
k la nk stop..
4 u dear,,my love,,if u read my blog,i just wanna say 2 u dat i love u so much..i appreciate what u have done 2 me..since u come in my life,my life change..but i hope we can be together until the end of my time..i only want u in my life..i dont want someone else..love u dear..may Allah bless us until we can together one day..